So I'm reading livejournal and listening to the kids talk on the street and I want to puke. I am disturbed at their chubby faces and beer guts. I will pass on your sad existance of some sloppy drunk......grow up, or better yet just turn into your white trash old man....cuddle up with a budwiser and watch tv. It's some sick community some sort of exceptance group......living in a dead year (sorry man it's not cool). If you want to drink a beer go ahead you don't need to anounce it, because no one cares that you drink or your drunk.
After I say all this I digress I am an adult and I'm over it
Bitter no over it yes |
It was very unexpected and I didn't even see it coming, it just hit me smashed me into the ground. I couldn't be more mad in my life the foolish part is....it's all my fault. The wires got crossed in my brain in our brains.......blah the whole thing is a mush. The rummble of feburary is coming closer and swalling my heart, if just for a moment the month could put all pain to rest. The expectations of everything remaing the same is over, nothing can seperate the past from the present. Everything looks good on paper, the thoughts are in order but the body is loopy, twisted, confused, with out complexity it blackens the mind. Seperation and flight are ways for the mind to servive and overcome any future torture. Closure is not sought only further investigation of the events that didn't take place or did they what were they again......that right you can't ever pinpoint the time or place you just know that it's already too late. Yes I do hate you, yes I really do hate you.....only because .....you
This entry is for Troy (the only man i've ever meet who runs from love) |
I wish everyone would just keep their comments inside. Why do I care, no I don't care what you have to say or what you think. Maybe the one eye guy was right when he said something was up with SF, he said he didn't like it because people were weird, or maybe they just are too smart. They are so smart they think that everyone gives a crap about what they have to say. I hate the one eye guy, he is annoying and gives off this creep vibe. The other day I was on my bike riding in the bike lane, but it was against traffic...and some spandex warrior tells me to get on the other side. Fuck you I want to be on the other side, but you know I can't cause it's sunny and the cars aren't stopping...so yeah I will be late for work....enjoy your day off, I know you drove up here with your bike, I know your not late for work, I know your bike cost over a grand and you equipment cost even more, thank you for telling me what to do, I hope your bike gets lifted, I hope I never see you again. Did I mention I was late for work, that I use my bike to get around. Just keep it to yourself and live in a bubble. Blah blah blah....it's all just noise
Todays Case
I fucking hate Christians
Fucking Jesus Christ
thats a name of a band, I don't know where they are from but that's the name and my co-worker but a flier on my locker so I would go to the show. I didn't make it to the show, but our DM saw it and wrote me a final warning....to be honest when I saw the flyer I saw a dinosaur she saw Jesus christ, no it's a dinosaur with a map in the background. She was offended and thought it was threating. |
Today I went to forever 21 with my Liz and Hannah. Liz had to go shopping and I needed new pants so we are off. This Forever 21 place is located right downtown, and it's full of crap and clothes that will last about a month. I didn't find anything and all the pants had flared bottoms. Liz ran away cause she was so overwhelmed, just waiting for the dressing room took 20 min. I don't ever want to compete for clothes with teenage girls, and I think I'm over 21 and I don't want to be 21 forever.
-Angela |
I went to the Secret machines show and it rocked, the moving units opened up for them and then can this big light show of colors and music...amazing.
2/23 I went to the Mates of State show at Slims they are part of the noise pop fest....oh it was beautiful, Mates of State is made up of a couple who have a baby and make happy I Love You music, it just shows that true love/ romance does exist.
2/23 Work is getting better, were not in the trash and we have a new CEO and Regional Manager, they both have amazing ideas and I think this is a change in the right direction. Liz is going to stay on board, the new DM isn't breathing down our backs and the store performance is getting better. In the case about the money, being missing stolen and then returned....no one knows who is doing it, so we all are getting written up (this hasn't happened yet, and we haven't had any other missing money issues.)
2/24
Today was an art day, I woke up and painted the table in the living room pink and white, then fixed the cover for the couch and sewed through my finger and got blood on everything....so I can't type very well with this bandaid on.
I didn't go to hot hot heat, eventhough I had a ticket Jessica found someone else to go with, I really needed to just say at home and paint.
-Thanks mom for doing my taxes
I Love You
2/25 Get suff done day
* got a new coffee pot, we now have two broken coffee pots
* food shopping
* banking
* get tickets for..........
Death from Above 3/28 @ the Independant
I still need to get tickets for OK GO and maybe Ambulance LTD playing with Autolux
Talk to you later Love Angela
by the way work today was good and everything balenced as it should, I'm not afraid of losing my job, but I'm not about to let my guard down or by all means slack....well I'm just not that kind of person. |
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Babie of the 80's
I grew up on five-alive and transformers and slip-n-slide, Toy's R Us and Chuck-e-Cheeze. Disco out and techno in to syntheszie my favorite sin, and her I am on my knees to get it back again.
Babies of the 80's
Little girls in lycra shorts, tented beds, nerf contact sports.....my babies of the 80's. Shout it out just one more time for the generation that was all mine. We learned to crawl on linoleum floors, Ronald Regan fauht Star Wars, but he'll never be Han Solo. Students march Tienemen Square. They took him out hey that's not fair, Dad said it's good to be free, as we watched from our t.v.
Babies of the 80's
We watched the wall fall down, we work up early for Bozo the clown, MTV and Nick at Nite and I slept for the first time without the light.
Who knew this could be something after all.....
Thank you the end. This computer has to be the worst thing in the world to type on, I have to twist my body up to write....and it hurts,......so goodnight.
May. 17th, 2004 @ 11:08 pm
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May. 14th, 2004 @ 12:04 pm
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Why Are YOu SO WeIrD
May. 3rd, 2004 @ 10:33 pm
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Fannypack....that's right....Williamsburg?.....Hipsters?.......
May. 3rd, 2004 @ 10:29 pm
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May. 3rd, 2004 @ 10:03 pm
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I went out this Sunday and the place was empty, I had a good time, but what happened to the people? So rent is payed and I am still working I do have Wednesday off, but I have to work for about three hours in the morning. So does that mean that I am not off on Wednesday?
Their is a band called Death Sentance: Panda!.....I found out that the band is made up of former members of total shutdown and if you kill a panda in China they will sentence you to death.
Love the Panda...
May. 3rd, 2004 @ 09:49 pm
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But I thought that it would freak you out. The other day I ran into my friend Shawn at the Hemlock, we knew eachother from before, and I was so happy to see him again. I think he is the only person in my life that is the same age that I am. So we are on our way back home, no really we walked from downtown to haight. We tried to watch rules of attraction and then I fall asleep and the poor guy had to let himself out, I felt so bad. Everything worked out he called today and it's all cool (bad friend bad friend). I guess the whole thing isn't that big of a deal cause Shawn is a rock star and he has seen it all before....
May. 1st, 2004 @ 12:42 am
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Marian and I went to Tv on the Radio, and I cried and cried my little eyes out they were so beautiful...we had mad shout outs (the pandas are in the house.) I love them so much, Kyp and I broke up again, but that is what we do and soon we will get back together. They even played ambulance for us and it was over, Marian and I just held eachother while I cried. I will miss them and I can't wait to get back to NY.
I missed my date with Joe tonight, the comic book convention is tomorrow, so we will catch up next weekend. Rent is due tomorrow caca. The 22 still sucks, but today was amazing.
I was working....doing hair, and whatever and then here they come. My critical mass buddies, not the same as ny but the sf kind, I drop everything and start screaming, no I am really screaming right in the doorway of the store. "More bikes less cars, more bikes less cars." I was so happy, I have to say it was the best thing that happened to me since I got back to SF.
Ok sweets
talk to you later...as for now I have to rock out to this song. ......Boom Boom
Booty up
Booty down
Work that booty all around.
Put it in
Pull it out
Show me what you’re all about.
Handle this
Handle that
Partying is where its at
Handle that
Handle this
We make hits and never miss
Work it hard
Hardly work
Gotta make that booty jerk
Just say yes
Just say no
Move your body to and fro
Keep it good
Keep it tight
Keep it going through the night
Me and you
You and me
We can do it constantly
Over here
Over there
Make the people stop and stare
This is right
This is wrong
People bouncin to this song
Go Crazy
Get freaky
Boys and girls don’t be sneaky
Big attack
Never wack
These here girls are Fannypack
Apr. 30th, 2004 @ 10:09 pm
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Yesterday I woke up at about 7 to take a bus across the city, and get to work. This said I had about 4 hours of sleep, but with my coffee I am good to go. After work my co-workers and myself get into Janes car and were on our way to happy hour when BAM, we get into a wreck. The car is smashed, and we aren't going anywhere. I am fine everyone is alright, I had my seatbelt on, but Dora didn't and she ran her face into the seat in front of her and twisted her finger.
Dora and I head down to the Hemlock, Jane makes it home...eventhough if it were my car I wouldn't drive it, in fear that it would blow up. We meet up with Luke my boss only on Sundays and shared the story with him. Then later on I ran into an old friend and we just talked, so I guess it turned into a good night.
Today wasn't that good....
I can't give you any information that is going to make you feel all like yeah.
1. I went to work
2. Patrick my assistant manager told me that he gets all his clothes from Greenday. I don't understand who does he think he is? All I have to do is call Aaron or Billy and find out if they know him.
3. Joe called and wanted to hang out...we made plans for later
4. I am watching Rufus and Ed, with my roommates and it's making me feel weird. Just like the time we watched Lucky.
These movies are for hipster trash
5. I can't wait to see Tv on the Radio play at Bottom of the Hill
6. I work at the Legion
7. Wed I have a traing class and the rest of the day off
8. Thur I have another training then have to come back to work at one.
Apr. 26th, 2004 @ 11:09 pm
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Yes it is hot and I think the warm weather is putting everyone in a good mood. I forgot my lunch today and I had to eat a something from a vending machine, YUCK! I am still living with three other people, and working more now then ever before. This is healing the pressures at home are starting to lessen the more I'm gone, I just need new people who are more like me, and I don't think that one should have to comform just to get along with others. I am not saying that we fight all the time, we are just different and I as well as them have more fun when I am with people more like me. Now for the work news two people have just put in their two weeks because they don't like our assistant manager, we kind of have this alliance thing going on (you can be frinds with this person and this person, but if your friends with this person then you can't be friends with the other.) Have you figured out that I work with children, you know young people that havn't really learned how to shut up and deal.....I have an idea if you have a problem say something and fix it, back talking is only going to make it worse. I think that Californians just like it that way, you know smile to your face and stab you in the back, they are really into that. Me I am just that girl that you wouldn't talk to (because you are afraid I will shoot you down, but at the same time I am the only one who is going to talk to you no matter what you look like/ act like. Well maybe not act like, I try to stay away from the crazy ones.
So I wanted to update my photo, I cut my hair and Dora and I took a picture with my hair put up. Bam it's so cute rules of attration meets naked aggression. You might change the girl but that crazy punk just seem to come through.
Love Gela
Apr. 25th, 2004 @ 02:21 pm
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I can't see, I can't write, I am getting lazy on the computer, I have to go to work at nine and it's about 2am. Ok in light of the really bad post I will entertain my three friends including my mother with a story about the other night. Or maybe two stories...ok.
I would just like to start off with I am a good worker, no really I work seven days a week.
But what goes on after work is another story. So I am a suit, you know we dress up in blazers and act all uptight in highheels, but after work I am memememe. My co workers and I went to happy hour after work at my favorite bar The Hemlock, ahh so many cute boys and amazing bands. Picture this I am with a 45 year old women a 42 year old gay man and a 59 year old hippy born and raised on hate street. The night goes on and we lose two co-workers due to bed time and I am out with the party queen. It's about 12am and I run into my X-boyfriend, I yell at him tell him that I hate him...cause who does he think he is going into MY BAR where all MY FRIENDS are, but since I am who we make up and get back together. The best part is I have step by step pictures of what happened during the night. 1. me yelling at him 2. him crying 3. us holding eachother
yeah funky story....
Next
The other night I decided to check out the local neighborhood, you know what kind of night life is awaiting down the street. I walk into a club talk to everyone, end up meeting people who live one block up and rock'n out!!!! We go back to the house and dance to gay music, I watch one boy try to talk on his shoe thinking it's a phone (more people show up, more dancing....it's almost 4 and I go home.)
That's what it's all about being a rockstar on your block.
And just so you all know
TV on the Radio will be at Bottom of the hill this Wed night
I will be at the Legion of Honor Sunday
I will be at the Hemlock Sunday night (you know it's part of the routine.)
Love Angela
Apr. 25th, 2004 @ 01:43 am
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Maybe it's just that writing in a live journal seems to be weird and strange, or maybe it's just one of those things that I really don't think needs to be done. I mean I work and go out and talk to people, and by the time I get home I really don't have the energy to start writing about my day. I have found my heavens....you know those spots that just make me feel good. I am getting ready to see my friends who are coming from NY, I just found out they were on TV (what on TV with Carson Daly.) I am making the sad face cause I missed it, but soon I will have the whole band in my living room. Rock on!
Apr. 25th, 2004 @ 01:35 am
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So when I was coming back from California on the plane, I saw San Francisco and started to cry. I didn't know what to do, maybe I just didn't have enough time to do all the things that I planned to do in San Francisco, and coming back home to New York was just too much too fast. So I am giving up on my dream of the big city, but not forever. I am just taking a vacation until the winds call again. I want to thank all my friends for giving me a time to remember when I was in California and I miss you this also goes for those of you who live in New York I love you and thank you for all the wonderful times we have shared....Happy New Year.
I hope to make 2004 the best year yet.
Jan. 6th, 2004 @ 11:52 am
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I am ready to come home now, I really can't believe that it is only seven days away before I get on that plane. Wow haven't seen California, family and friends since May; I already know it will be weird to come back, it is a bit weird just talking about it and talking to all my friends. This anticipation has been so bad that I can't sleep at night, I have tried everything, no coffee late night, music, running around until I want to drop.....and still when I put my head on that pillow I don't end up going to sleep until about 4am. I have made an app. to cut my hair on Friday, I don't think it would be good to come home looking all witchey.
The good news is the weather is better now and the snow is melting away. We are doing well in sales at the store and the spirt of new york is up at a whole. I will talk to you all later....tonight I am going to take pictures after work and try to sleep.
Dec. 10th, 2003 @ 10:22 pm
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I just wanted to say thank you again to Marian for coming to NY for a visit, it was quite needed. I would also like to thank my friends for helping to show her how to have a good time in Brooklyn.
So last night Kyp played at Bottom of the Hill and oh I was told the show was great, but they didn't play ambulance...what is up with that. I mean that is my favorite song and poor little Marian was just waiting patiently for her eyes to tear. Any way....I was told the show rocks....yeah.
Ok that's about all
Love Angela
Nov. 19th, 2003 @ 12:05 pm
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